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Hey!!Im feeling too good today! I dont know why? But Im soo glad! I woke up and went to Church and it was sooo good!!! you know I like boys so I saw alot of boys! not just regular boys but God fearing ones!! soo nice and so good!!! but yes I loved the church and my day!! but besides that my weekend was good alot of weird things occured! but nothing i could not control!!!

Ok I have decided I am not going to complain and be wanting a dude!! Im just going to pray for one and until then I am going to be single and satisfied...OMG did I tell youabout what I heard my ex has been doing? well I guess he has moved on without me *partially sad face* but yea, all in all I think it is over between us infact it is. But the only thing I dont understand is why would you use the word "love" and not act on it? like when you say you "love" someone your not meant to hurt them in anyway possible..but I guess I was lied too once again*teary eyes* but hey "you live and you learn" its just so painful to know that ok my ex is trying to hola at a distant friend or that he is just doing some unnecessary mess..but hey! I guess I'll get over it!!..Im getting there but im taking baby steps...hopefully God will give me the strength to get over him completely!

And on the brighter side I think I need to get rid of all these sidekicks, because maybe they are the reason why I cant move forward and find that special someone..infact I'm not looking for just anyone anymore..Im looking for a young gentleman that dwells in the lord and also someone I can learn from, understand, laugh with, cry with and all that good stuff...Gosh its so hard!! but I know I'm getting warmer and warmer and warmer :-) hmmm me and my high school sweets are getting close....the one that was crazy over me and the one that I was crazy about...Ive been talking to them, laughing and all that good stuff....hmm idk but I hope something worth it happens and if it doesnt well I guess I would be back to square one...sucky sucky!! but hmm I dont have much to say today! probably tommorow!!