BLAME It on the A-a-a-a-a-Alcohol!!!..

Hey.... was on vacation so I wasnt able to write...sorry!!!

Anyway my vacation was nice. Very relaxing. Then I had to snap back to reality!!! work work work!! SO, I hope everyone had a good Spring Break...

This was Purple's first planned trip.. I have to give it to her... It was fun....!!! BIG UPS!!!lol

Anyway, I have been thinking a lot about vacaboo and I and how this long distance thing is definately not for me. I mean its been 2 and a half months and knowing me, I doubt I would do a year. I dont want to give up on him but it is hard. when I think of the future if this person is capable of spending my life with, I kind of dont see it. Religion is a very big thing to me. I always pictured my family going to church on sundays, hosting fellowships and all that. But if we have different beliefs, who would be my motivator on sundays. I need my back bone to be on the same page as me but I dont see it. I see a religion barrier. But at the same time Im thinking too much. Let me slow my roll.

OKAY I HAVE A CONFESSION!!!!

During my vacation, while intoxicated, I made out with this guy. NO!! not a random but someone I used to talk to like a while back. There was no spark or tension (that i remember). I thnk I passed out in the middle of kissing... thats how wasted I was. it felt kinda wierd the next day when I sobbered up and realised what I did... why? because after I talked to him( a while back), he ended up tryin to talk or talking to my BFF. I dont remember what went down btw them cos I was never into that gist much. I stopped talking to him cos I caught a bigger and better fish (in my eyes at that time) . So i wasnt really bothered about it.. (okay maybe a little at first cos it was kinda wierd). But shit happens and i believe a womans nightmare could be another womans fairytale. Not that he was my nightmare but he could have definately been her fairytale and I wouldnt deprive her of it since she is my BFF.(aint she lucky... how many friends wud think like that...)

Anyway, I felt wierd. SHOULD I BE FEELING THAT WAY ??? thats one question I need an answer to cos I definatley dont know the answer....

Anyway He called me like a few days later but I didnt want to talk about it. As in whatever hapened during vacation stays in the vacation spot. So i kept avoiding the topic. My friends say its bad that i hold it and just let it out BUT NOOOO I dont see the point. I kissed him big deal like we havent kissed before. Its not that big of a deal now is it BLOGVILLE!!!???!!
He is a nice guy and I dont want any awkwardness btw us. PLUS SMALL WORLD he knows vacaboo.... (I smell trouble!!!)..

Thereis a show on VH1 its called Tough Love. it airs on sundays at 10pm eastern time but they repeat alot. Watch IT!!.. it shows the different problems women face and what women do wrong trying to find the right MAN!!.. WATCH IT.. its interesting!!

OKay Im out for now!!!

My moral lesson is no more alcohol cos it makes me do things I might regret
ANd pls pray for me VACABOO must not find out... or back to LONELYDOM..lol

PEACE..

Yours truly,

~GREEN~