What To DO?

hey bloggie!! I've been yearning to write for abit> Anyways this is your "purple" ready to share whats been going on so far. Anyways, Guess what happpend to me...I told you about the whole "cutting down of the dudes I talk to" plan right? yea so as I'm in the process, this guy that I kinda use to talk to a very long time ago, like 2years ago..hollers at me after 2years of not speaking yesterday!! wow!! i was amazed!.. So let me tell you about this guy, he is cute and everything..ok not cute but he has swag and thats cute to me, so yea he was in the previous university I use to attend. So yea, I guess I caught his eye and he wanted to get to know me, he was real sweet and all that good stuff, but he had soo much baggage, I think his ex/girlfriend attended our school at that moment and mind you the reason why he is even in the university he is in is because of her...Since I heard that and I decided to back off him, but he kept tellin me she was an ex and blahblahblah! I entertained him, we didnt get physical but we spent time with each other and walked and talked with each other during the late evenings( I love things like that). So yea, one very night he texted me and told me he didnt want to have anything to do with me and how he wants to stop talkin to me because he is going full time with his ex and blahblahblah! I was like ok, cool! I hadnt caught any full blown feelings for him because I was scared he was just attracted to me physically and not emotionally or mentally..u get my drift?...anyways since then I just cut him off, but then he begged to see me, because I stopped picking up his calls and basically i just stayed out of sight of him, so our paths never met because I felt that he was really rude for texting me that. Anyways I finally gave him the day and time to see me and he explains how his ex girlfrend went through his phone and decided to text me and stuff. I kindof forgave him but i was still skeptical about him because why would his ex have ability to text me all that if they are not together, so I knew something fishy was going on. But I forgave him but kept my distance. Well I decided to leave the school after spending some time there and right before I left I found out that he decided to date one of my friends! No problem because she asked me if I had any feelings for him before she decided to date him, and I told her she was free to talk to him. So after I left they dated and dated and dated!! I had no problem with it, only wondering what he was thinking about trying to talk to me and then going to date my friend! anyways they eventually broke up and he was back to single! i wasnt to worried at that moment again. So low and behold yesterday I get a text and its him. All he could do is apologize and was askking me if we could start all over again and I forgve him and I told him yea...I wonder if I did the right thing? We never really had any ties of being together so I think I made the right choice! :-)

By the way I was sitting down pondering why its so hard to see something good thats right in front of my face!!!! Ive experienced so many difeerent guys and I believe I still havnt seen the one. But comming to think of it, Ive actually had various potentials but I just hapen to be too naive and young to see something good right on top of my nose! doesnt that suck!! I was thinking about this guy that I told you guys before that Im going to only concentrate on and cut all the other guys off, yea I was thinking about him and how he genuily liked me and I just brushed him off all because I felt we didnt have a connection!! :-( but that was back then, now that we talk we have so much to talk about and he is such a gentleman...I never noticed it and mind you we have had so many opportunities to catch up on things! He use to live in the same state as me, we use to go to the same schoola nd he lived right on top of my room!!! like how creepy is that!! and we also went to high school together!! hmmm whats up with that? anyways Im really bad at not getting to know people and I kindof changed my ways and now its stilll bad! because I talk to sooo many guys!! so which do I do..cut them off and not give them a chance, or give them a chance and have so many guys!!! AHHHHH life sucks!!!

Well thats it for now guys!!! Yours truely *Purple*