Ms. Purple

Helllooooooo! Omigosh this is one of my/our first blogs!!! But yea, where do I start? My quest for "something real" is abit different then Greens. I've been single for about 2 and a half years :-( really sucks but yea... Im a real different breed though, Ive actually only had 3 boyfriends in my 21 years on earth. My first boyfrend was Mr.Hazel Eyes, I really liked him but I was real young then, so i probably didnt know anything, we broke up because he relocated and plus I found a new lover...dont get me wrong thoogh Hazel Eyes is still very much active in my life, as a matter of fact I saw him recently after sooooo long and i could feel "something", I dont know what it was but I felt something! He is really cool and someone I can see myself with in the nearest future.

Moving right along, after Hazel Eyes there was no wait period I ran into another lover...he was a different kind of breed he goes by Mr. International. The way we met was kind of different, but we made it happen. We were really into each other, I adored him, I was still young but I just loved the way he made me feel, we were both in and out of each others houses, we always hung out and just spoke till we could speak no more..I really trusted him and just never kept anything from him, but yea yea yea we were together for 3years and then he just ended up breaking my heart *tear drop* It took me the longest to get over him, I think it took me 3 years to get over him. But now I'm good!!! Then the last but not least of my very own possesions is Mr. Smooth. *giggles* no one really knows how we met except for the both of us, but it was real cute i call it *cyber love*. We started off as friends tho, which is the best way to start of any relationship, anyways yea he was there for me while i was getting over Mr.International(kindof weird) but yea it worked, then we kicked it off..it took me awhile to get into him but I finally did..I basically lived Mr.Smooth until we couldnt continue the relationship due some "circumstances beyond us"-thats what I call it. But he never cheated on me and he never did anything to hurt me, and we still talk, we tried to make things work out between us, but it was kindof impossible, so now we are just slowing falling out * tears* I hate it soo much but we just cant be together :-(.

But yea that was a quick review of the past, but yea apart from my official men, I have alot of guys that come up to me and just try and become apart of my life, but after having my heart mistreated twice. I want the third time to be a CHARM*. Well let me brush you up on the guys so when you see them lateron in the blog you can have an idea. I have Mr.Big-Timer, he is a great dude, very nice and caring and someone I wouldnt mind being with him at all because he would be there for me when i need him, but theres a big problem....I am not attracted to him in no way possible, it really sucks but its true and I do not date guys I am not attracted to because It wont work :-( but he is my friend though, but he is in love with me and it kindof scares me. Then we have Mr.School boy, he is also another great person, he is soo nice and soo caring, and he would literally do anything for me, but the problem with him is that I am not attracted to him either, I actually tried and went a little bit forward with him but it didnt last, I couldnt force myself any longer. He tries to stop talking to me though because he feels that i am leading him on (and that is not thee case) but what can I say?. There is also Mr.Cool, I just met him recently but he doesnt live around me, infact he lives in another country :-( sucks, he is not everything i want but he posses some qualities but what catches my eye aboout him is that he is so straight forward, he wants to be with me and he wants everyone to know( I love that) but he is famously known for trying to date alot of girls which is a problem in my book :-( but we still talk, and i love it! I recently met Mr. English as well, he is everything I want, but he has a girlfriend and that sucks, but he flirts with me and thats not a good look!!! ok 2 more..lol!! i have Mr. Comes and Goes, he is real different I use to have this crazy crush on him but then he shut me down by not talking to me for the logest time ever, it was real sad but then he came back and now I dont know if I should let my heart lose, he says he would never hurt me like that again but I dont know? he comes and goes whenever he pleases though! but what i like about him is that he is always there!!! :-). This last fellow is my Mr. Prince Charming!! I use to like him awhile back, but then I got over him...Im sorry we use to like each other awhile back and it was really cute because he was shy and i was "shyer" if thats a word. But then the likeness died and now we are just friends, but we are friends with a "bond" we still care about each other, but never act on our feelings..hmmm! Out of the many guys if Mr. Prince Charming came up to me. i would date him on the spot...giggles* ridiulous but true.

Anyways thats my little introduction, abit of everything, but yea I am hoping for that fairytale love story to hit me, Im so sad and Im so scared of being lonely and having to end up settling for less, which I dont want to happen so Im in this quest, ok not a quest but Im praying for that special person to call when i am down and that special person to be able to kiss through the phone etc. Yea so this blog is going to be a motivator and diary for me to keep record of my feelings.....stay tuned!