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hey bloggie!!! Ive had the longest week ever! Im so happy a brandnew one is about to start! I cant wait to see what its about to offer!! So yea Ive been feeling really good! I told you I have like a new found crush/boo! So yea its real weird and real different! I guess because I havnt been in a relationship in such a long time..ohmigosh! I dont even know how to act or anything! its crazy! or i wonder if it is because I just havnt had that "i like him, he likes me" experience in the loooongest time! like wow is such an amazing feeling when the dude you ACTUALLY like is trying to pursue you...* i feel amazing*. So we have been seeing each other frequently during the week and its cool, we talk occasionally and text all the time!! and yesterday we went to see a movie, and nothing happened and im so happy he didnt try anything silly! even though he wanted to rub on my arm, hold my hand during the movie and at first i felt weird and then I gave in for abit!! lolll! and he definately peeped that, it was real funny...but I loved it! I felt so good and we had good conversation even though Im still holding back because we are still sooo fresh in the game! I dont want to rush anything and I also dont wana take anything to sloowww because I dont know he pace to take..I have two weeks of scholl left *tear* and we are going to be an hour away for the whole summer :-( idk what to expect!!! but yea Im just going with the flow!!!

Anyways later that night, he invited me to his house because they were having a little party ans I gladly came through with my two girls(which he is quite familar with)...my girls are the craziest, they r really aggressive with him that he wonders what would happen if they hate him....lol!! but yea it was cool we drank(me and my girls) and we came through the house...and mind you he told me before he dropped me off after the movies that when i see him I better not act unfamilar..lol! so yea when we finally made it through the house I saw him and my friends hugged him and said whats up and I said "hi and waved" and best believe he was like "oh-kay im acting unfamiliar" but gosh it was alot of people in the house i dont wana be too groupie-ish but idk! i was just shy! seeing him everytime feels like im seeing him for the very first time..lol but yea after awhile i went upstairs and sat in the living room because i was tired, whenever i drink i just want to sleep! so yea my friends made him come sit next to me and yea thats where it kicked off..we both talked and flirted all thru the night!!! I gave him a kiss on the cheek..*blush*...and omg! do you know what i like he knows i have like standards...so he wanted me to see his room and he knew I would feel weird if he came with me so he told me "to go see his room and he would sit on the couch"..lol! twas too cute..lol! but yea we flirted and flirted all the way through the night!! he is real cool but omg!! im such a picky person :-( i dont like the way he dresses!! soooo american and ahhh i dislike much :-( but hmm maybe he is going through alot so i wont knock him for that!! we can transition on that,,...lol!! anyways after the end of the night he wanted me to kiss him on the lips :-( ahhhh i really dont wanna come off in anyway until he makes it official official official so i gave him a quick kiss on the lips no tongue!! it was just like the one i gave him on his cheeks..lmao! im so young at heart but what can I do!! he was shoked though!!, and he didnt want me to leave but i had too...and the funny thing is that there is this other guy kinda admires me and he was at the party so whenever my eyecandy left I was talking to him and i guess it seemed asif we were flirting! idk what my eyecandy thot of that! but hey i was just talking to him nothing serious, even though there was some feelings in our convo( me and the other dude) but yea yea yea had a great night!! got back to the room and my boo called me to say good night! and it was a wrap! I was super tired today and now he wants me to come over his house and kick it in the living room..lol! he knows i dont like the whole "bedrom" idea..but hmm we would see...he thinks im soo much of a good girl..ok i am! but im just taking it slow, if i were his girl i would give him 75% of myself and the other rest is too my husband..lol! 100%..lol!! by guys! love ya!mwah

On Cloud 9

OoooooooooooooOOOOwiiiiii!! You would not believe my weekend guys!! it was sooo greattt!! I want to share it with the world! ALright I had the best weekend ever with my hommies in school!! and yesterday just topped off the weekend! like ohmidaiz! so yea i drank yesterday and i was soo tipsy it was crazy! but my friends were drunk so I kinda had to babysit! It was still cool! so yea I told you about my crush right? yea his name is "eyecandy" so yea eyecandy had a tragedy in his family and he was feeling bad so he didnt really go out until yesterday and I saw him at the party! woohoo! I spotted him strolling because he is a frat boy but I dindt say anything! until his frat brother literally pushed him towards me, ohmigosh it was so embarassing! like I had to walk away..then he finally walked right back into me and he was like blahblahblah and then he asked me for my number, so i definately gave it to him lol! so yea then we parted! he came up and checked on me occasionally because I was drunk but I didnt let him know..i composed myself real good, I was happy for myself....so i was busy babysitting my girlies and through out the night! getting some hollas and comments but i didnt care too much for them! I was just thinking of eyecandy! idk if he was thinking about me the same way though! So yea, after the party me and my drunkies were going to walk home and then I heard someone call out my name and low and behold it was eyecandy and his frat boys, he asked mne if i wanted a ride and i said sure but its me and my girlies and yea yea yea he dropped us at home!! i thought that was totally sweet! like wow!! so yea he later called me at night!! ohmigosh guys I was totally star struck! like im so shy around him and i havnt been in a relationship or liked someone in such awhile that I dont even know how to act! it really sucks :-( but yea we talked until I fell asleep on him...

So today he called me and UUUUUwwwwwwwwiiiii!! we got to know each other better,we played Q&A over the phone..lol!! it was real cute! i didnt want to drop, but I had to work! wow! everythings moving so fast Imn so scared!! Im soo scared of sooo many things...first of all i hope he likes me for me, like i hope his frat bro isnt making him like me because im his frats friend you know, and i asked my girl and she was like "no theres an attraction between us and everyone can see iit" omg! im so scared!. Im also scared of the fact that I havnt been a relationship for awhile I wonder if I would know how to act!* I dont want to chase him away! and yea Im a virgin! im so scared that he might not want to be with me because of that! ohmi! he is such a darling though! like I reallly like him its crazy! i even had a dream about him last night! spooky! and whats so cool about it is that he is so down to earth he knows all about my culture cuz he hangs with people from where i am from! wow!! i dont know tho, we would see we are just getting to know each other and my girlies love him! woohoo!!! I am so on cloud 9 right now!! and wow!! Ive never dated or even spoken to and african american before, wow!!!Ive only listened to them never got interested! i wonder what my mom would do...the funny thing is that he asked me what my mom and dad do if i introduced him to them!! i really dont know!!! well woohoo! thats that for now! would keep you sooo updated!

Sending the Right message to the Wrong person!!

Hey BLOOOOGGGGGerz, Ive been gone for a minute but now Im back with the jump offff!!! usually I have boy drama in my life everyday..but having soooo much work to do at once stops me from noticing the drama.... Anyway to the drama... I get a text message from my last boo..not vaca boo, talking about come visit me..ill make this worth while..the weather is going to be nice during the weekend...he'll show me a good time..he promises...and all that good offers you find hard to say no too even if youre mad. So I was going to but I was low on funds and he said he would go half with me..which i thot was nice of him. but I decided not to go cos i have a lot of work to do before the end of next week. so tell me why.. I get a text from this dude saying..."im home now babe, you could come over now".... WAIIIITTT A MINNNN!!!!! that definately wasnt to me because I made it clear i was not comming...OKayyyy!! crazy init. He is such a NIGGAH,... like that was just wrong. So I definately came to the conclusion that that its totally over with that boy!!... Its different when you assume he is mesig..but with proof and caught red handed....its DEFINATELY over...no chances nothing.... Im sooooo over it...so over it!!! SO sending the wrong person the right message ..was a good thing cos I needed to see that message...to make smart decisions!!!..thank you for that! im not even maddddd.... I do think its fucked..but like i alwas say life goes on!! please people should learn to verify who they are sending it to before clicking the send button!!... I'm off to bed.. and I refuse to be upset. Good Nite~ ~Green~ xx

WoooooHoooo

hey bloggie! If I say nothing happens with me everyday!! im such a liar..anyways yea, so I told you about my crush right! Ohmigosh! you wont believe this. So yea he has a class right before mine every monday wednesday and friday! But I never see him but I just saw him once and we had a little chitchat(initiated by me) because my friend once told me that if you want to talk to a cute guy "i have to be the one to walk up to them" because the cute ones are shy and the not so cute ones are the bold ones..how ironic..If i knew I looked good thats when I would be bold..but I guess its the other way around for the dudes. Anyways yea we had a little chit chat wasnt anything out of the world. Then later that evening i saw him at work and we had a brief chit chat because he was at work. I didnt really care because we are on speaking terms, and its not asif I want him to be my boyfriend, i just want to talk to him tho and I do think he is cute.

So anyways yesterday, I went to his job and I didnt see him so I got my food and sat alone as usual..lol! several of my friends came by sat with me and had a brief chit chat with them and at that moment I realized I had more guy friends then girlfreinds but thats a topic for another day! anyways so yea my crush walked up to me and we had this 2omin long convo...it was sooooo crazy!! because he lives really close to me and his bestfriend is from where I am from so he was asking me if I knew what this means and what that means? I thought that was real cute. We basically had a good convo, I was so shy because at some moments I kept quiet because I was eating, didnt want food to gush outta my mouth! It was basically our first convo...lol!! we also graduate at the same time and all that good stuff...wooohooo!! I love when I get what I anticiate for..theres no better feeling!! anyways woohoo we are friends now!!! and i wish I could how you his pic, but he is cute, dark skinned and all that!! cute!! ..lol anyways apart from that, nothing else has really been happening! So yea just wanted to keep you updated...Im blushing..lol!

!....Real...!

hey bloggie its been so long! trust me Ive missed you so, but school is becoming so overwelming to me!! and it seems like the closer to the end you get the harder it becomes!!! but anyways life hasnt really been as interesting as it usually is, but I never have a dullin moment in my life, something is always happening! It can be irritating but sometimes its great. Anyways news update I have a crush on this guy! he is sooooo cute to me, like oh my!!! he is short tho( really sucks). So yea let me give you the low down: So he works at the caffeteria in school because you know I live in the dorms, so yea he serves me food all the time and all i say is hi and whatever I want, so one day I changed my hair style from braids to weave and he was like you look nice with your hair like this(straight) and I get all defensive and start to ask him what he thought about my braids( i was just jokin with him) and from there on all we say is hi and blahblahblah! So he is in a fraternity and he invites me to one of his evenst one day! and I get super geeked. I went to it and it was nice, I stared him down everytime I got the chance...lol! But yea then the afterparty was in his fraternity house, I came through and then he spotted me out and he was shocked and he was like wow, your in my house im honored blahblahblah, because I never really go out. But I had fun he came to check on me momentarily! so yea Im crushin on him so hard that i am soo shy to even say hi to him! anyways its kindof a lost battle because he has a girlfriend/ex thats in an organization I would like to be apart of so if i even try anything with him, it would probably reduce my chances of ever becomig apart of the organization since she is the president of the organization :-( Life kicks rocks! But I still like looking at him and all that! He is dark skinned and so handsome :-( but im sure I would get over it!


WoW!! Can you imajine? One of my friends ex boyfriends just died!! So horrible and she didnt get to tell him "i love you before he left!! isnt that so horrible! Life really sucks and because of that Im learning to let things go and I try to keep in touch with the people that are very dear to me and I try and get to see any of my friends everytime I get because you seriously cannot predict tommorow, maybe me maybe you! So yea, its scary but things like that happen! I try not to keep grudges as well if Im letting go of a particular friendship, I still care about the person but we just cant be friends! So yea.....I feel so sad about my friends ex, because they were trying to get back together and the crazy thing is that i tease her about him all the time but now...he is in a better place! May his soul rest in perfect peace. And now she feels like she cant love anymore! I sincerly dont know how she is feeling but I know its a horriblfe feeling and I hope God gives her the strength to live through it and let her know that everything happens for a reason. As I am learning to express my feelings in the best way I can to my dear friends and love, live and laugh because life is too short! and you definately cannot predict tomor!...love you all..mwah