..Long Smmer days...

Ohmidays! It has been forever!!! I iss my bloggy! Ive been swamped with work and random thoughts of what to do with my life, I rarely even talk on the phone(what i love to do :-().. but hey!!! its been the longest summer ever and I started my sumer with the goal that I am going to stop colecting guys asif they were collector items..but now im here at the end of summer going oout with a different guy every day! We arent doing anything tho..im just going out o dinners and talking to different people...yea life still sucks I havnt yet ffound that "ONE"...and I stay steady listening to this song by Lyfe Jennings called "Will i ever" will i ever fall in love?... Its kinda crazy...but now Im just soo use to being single its crazy..Im scared to even be in a relationship...Bad Bad Bad....sooo would I ever fall in love? or would I be alone forever? ...anyways yea in the beginnig of summer I was on a clean slate..then I had to go see my last year summer boo and yea we hung out and he was real caring and yea he still liked me, and I dont know whats wrong wit me but I just dont know how to like him..his swag is sooo off to me :-( but he is a good person and I would like to like him but its hard and he doesnt jock me like before soooooo yeaaaa... but yea I met this other guy later in the holiday but yea he had a girlfriend and he never told me so I scratched him off asap!! its crazy but after I got cheated on the pain I felt after the relationship really makes it hard for me to let someone cheat on their girlfriend with me, its really sad! but yea....my american bOO who is in school is just off and on>im sincerly tired of him< i DONT think I can be patient with him anymore, i just feel asif he is trying to " get the milk for free with out buying the cow" and yea not too cool...if you really like something or someone wouldnt you wana get them so you dont have to share them with anyone else? idk whats good with the world nowadays...GOSH! but yea I met this other guy and he is like cool from another tribe as me and hmmm it seems asif he likes me but he is trying to play it safe and not throw his feelings out but he is very subtle with his approach...I hate that so im just not even taking him seriously!! and yea there is my ex, ohmiiiii! it seems asif he has me on a freakin leash :-( but yea Im getting better, I droped on him on our last convo because he was talking about having sex with me and telling me to tease him,,i found it very insulting because it sees asif he wants to benefit from mme yet we arnt togetherr..no way joseeee(pronounced hooooeeezzay)...but yea so I got mad and dropped the phone...when Im done wit my blog Im goin to put what i want in life in writing! I cant be fooling around with these niggas anymore I need a man :-)..Im proud of myself no physical activities have been taken place this wholee summer yay( Im beinga good girl)

But yea before I leave you I have to tell you about this story..ok so yea one of my friends had a crush on this dude like two years ago and then they stopped talking because she felt asif he liked another girl and all that! and i think he liked her too or whatever!! but yea yea yea so after two years they meet in my city at a gathering! isnt that crazy!! so yea they talk and all that and she passively introdoces me and my other friend to him but nothing serious! So yea she fronts for him and then later gives in to him...i knew she still liked him but she was fronting but whatever! So the week after I saw him at a picnic and my friend introduces me tohim and he goes "do i know you" and im like maybe..and then he asks if im friends with 'blah" and I say yea...and then we start talking and he is friends with my ex too so we just like joking around and cracking random jokes and basicaly just having a good time...then later that night my friend him and I go out to party and him and my friend having a good time, i even excuse them so thati wont be a pproblem...fun night for them, but after that night my friend gets to complaining how he doesnt reply her texts or how he doesnt call and blahblahblah!! so she basically wants to have him jockin her like he use to but I gess he wasnt "on that" anymore *sad face*..but yea we start talking on facebook and he says that we should be buddies and blahblahblah..very platonic about everything and it was cool with me, i think he is real cool so yea he asked to kick it with me and I said yea and we went out yesterday and it was cool! fun it was asif we have known each other forever he sat on my laps we wwas eating from each others plate and all that!! just like a "gay friend" it was real cool! but everyone thinks its weird! idk...no feelings attached but it was cool!! he is mad cute too..lol!!! anyways yea thats summer so far! im still that single sistah,....God is Love..